Beware of Pride… I don’t like the saying, but it is true. I have never before thought of myself as being prideful. I have (and still do) see myself as a wife that is proud of her husband and a mother who is very proud of her children. But is that what it speaks of in the scriptures as being prideful? The truth to the answer is no.
As I read this week, I learned. I cried. And I prayed. In Drawing Heaven Into your Marriage by Dr. H. Wallace Goddard, he writes “In fact, any time we feel irritated with our spouses, that irritation is not an invitation to call our spouses to repentance but an invitation to call ourselves to repent. We are irritated because of our own lack of faith and humility.” This statement had profound effect on me.
I was sitting here, at my desk, reading the material to ponder over what to write for my blog this week when I read the above words. The instant I read them, I remembered sitting on the couch yesterday afternoon irritated with my husband. I was irritated that he wasn’t answering me. I feel that he does this frequently, and that he does this knowing that it irritates me. Clearly, it is me with the issue. I am the one irritated by my husband’s natural tendencies. Maybe he really does not answer me quickly because he wants to irritate me, but who am I to read his mind?
So how do I fix the problem? As Alma fixed his, as the Publican did, as the people of Mosiah did. I must repent and turn to Christ and ask for mercy and forgiveness. I am but a human and I need Him, Jesus Christ to help me lose my pride. Pride in thinking that I need an answer now. Pride believing that I can make my husband answer me. Perhaps my husband not answering me is my lesson from Heavenly Father in patience which I have yet to learn. Perhaps this is my big picture lesson so that I can see that I am indeed prideful and I simply need to repent and get over myself.
So, instead of spending hours at the computer today, I intend to finish writing up this blog …get a couple more homework assignments off my plate and go lose myself in service. I need it. I need time to quietly reflect and to ask of God to teach me the ways of humility.
Have you had eye opening moments when Heavenly Father has taught you about your own pride? What did you do to overcome these trials? Let me know in a comment!
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.